I’m so done with this guy. Even we’re not tore there anymore, I know that he can always hurt me again. And that was the proof. But I also still have feelings for this guy. It’s like in sticking in this hole that I can’t get out off. Sometimes I feel like it doesn’t even matter what I feel, or someone cares. I blame myself sometimes. In the end I know that the only person I can blame is him, but I just can’t, I just can’t hate him. I want it so badly but I can’t. It was all a lie, our whole relationship was a lie. 

I loved him so much, I always thought he did too.

I’m so done with this guy. Even we’re not tore there anymore, I know that he can always hurt me again. And that was the proof. But I also still have feelings for this guy. It’s like in sticking in this hole that I can’t get out off. Sometimes I feel like it doesn’t even matter what I feel, or someone cares. I blame myself sometimes. In the end I know that the only person I can blame is him, but I just can’t, I just can’t hate him. I want it so badly but I can’t. It was all a lie, our whole relationship was a lie.

I loved him so much, I always thought he did too.